Today was my day off. I had an appointment and had to run some errands, but other than that, the day was mine. So I took care of what I needed to, and went back home.
Once I returned to my apartment, all my big plans for the day fell to the wayside. For some reason, I’ve been incredibly anxious lately, and it hit me right between the eyes when I finally made it home. So no updates on my LinkedIn profile or to The Ventilator. No power cramming on the half a dozen courses and webinars I’m working on. No networking. No writing.
My phone was still off from my earlier appointment and I never turned it back on. I locked the door, even though it was a beautiful day outside. And I curled up on the couch and slept.
I needed to ‘de-sensitize’.
Why am I telling you this? Why should you care?
Because everyone knows someone who has day’s like these. Or maybe they have them. And sometimes we don’t understand what’s going on.
All I know is I’ve been on sensory overload the past few months and now I’m starting to shut down. I’m not angry. I’m not depressed. And I don’t hate people. I just need a massive re-charge. And unfortunately for me, this doesn’t happen overnight. It would probably wouldn’t hurt to re-evaluate my priorities, also.
These are all parts of my ‘introversion’. If this was happening a year ago, I would of ran to my doctor and insisted she upped my meds, because something was seriously wrong with me. But now I know that there’s nothing wrong with me. I just need to learn the skills, that are suited for me, to deal with things.
And I’m working on that. But I’m going to do it my way, at my own pace. I will continue to research the subject. And I will read everything I can get my hands on.
It may take me a bit to get ‘back on track’. But that’s ok by me. So if I seem to disappear for a bit, no worries. It’s just my need to get back my energy. No need to panic, I assure you. I don’t think anyone’s ever died from ‘introversion’.
And if you know of anyone who’s like this, you see that there’s nothing ‘wrong’ with them. Not…a…damn…thing. You just need to be patient.
I’m currently reading ‘Quiet: The Power of Introverts in a World That Just Can’t Stop Talking’ by Susan Cain. It’s opened my eyes to many things, and if the subject interest’s you, I would highly recommend it.
So until next time, I’m off to…rest, relax, re-charge. k