I Need to Re-Charge, and That’s OK

Today was my day off. I had an appointment and had to run some errands, but other than that, the day was mine. So I took care of what I needed to, and went back home.

Once I returned to my apartment, all my big plans for the day fell to the wayside. For some reason, I’ve been incredibly anxious lately, and it hit me right between the eyes when I finally made it home. So no updates on my LinkedIn profile or to The Ventilator. No power cramming on the half a dozen courses and webinars I’m working on. No networking. No writing.

My phone was still off from my earlier appointment and I never turned it back on. I locked the door, even though it was a beautiful day outside. And I curled up on the couch and slept.

I honestly can not explain why, but this is so true for me.
I honestly can not explain why, but this is so true for me.

I needed to ‘de-sensitize’.

Why am I telling you this? Why should you care?

Because everyone knows someone who has day’s like these. Or maybe they have them. And sometimes we don’t understand what’s going on.

Yup. For me the need to re-charge is as essential as water.
Yup. For me the need to re-charge is as essential as water.

All I know is I’ve been on sensory overload the past few months and now I’m starting to shut down. I’m not angry. I’m not depressed. And I don’t hate people. I just need a massive re-charge. And unfortunately for me, this doesn’t happen overnight. It would probably wouldn’t hurt to re-evaluate my priorities, also.

These are all parts of my ‘introversion’. If this was happening a year ago, I would of ran to my doctor and insisted she upped my meds, because something was seriously wrong with me. But now I know that there’s nothing wrong with me. I just need to learn the skills, that are suited for me, to deal with things.

And I’m working on that. But I’m going to do it my way, at my own pace. I will continue to research the subject. And I will read everything I can get my hands on.

It may take me a bit to get ‘back on track’. But that’s ok by me. So if I seem to disappear for a bit, no worries. It’s just my need to get back my energy. No need to panic, I assure you. I don’t think anyone’s ever died from ‘introversion’.

And if you know of anyone who’s like this, you see that there’s nothing ‘wrong’ with them. Not…a…damn…thing. You just need to be patient.

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I’m currently reading ‘Quiet: The Power of Introverts in a World That Just Can’t Stop Talking’ by Susan Cain. It’s opened my eyes to many things, and if the subject interest’s you, I would highly recommend it.

So until next time, I’m off to…rest, relax, re-charge.   k

 

Yay Me!!! I’m Not Sick, I’m Just An Introvert!!!!

I am so glad that I finally figured out that yes, I’m an introvert. There are a ton of us out there. And unfortunately, not only are they misunderstood, they aren’t really even aware that’s what they are.

What is an introvert exactly??? Well in a nutshell an introvert is someone who is energized by being alone, and whose energy is drained when they are around other people.

I'm in good company...
I’m in good company…

It has nothing to do with shyness.  Now an introvert may be shy also. But shyness in itself usually has issues with anxiety, apprehension and nervousness thrown in the mix. The reason that introverts avoid social situations is because it literally sucks the energy right out of us. And we need to be alone to re-charge. Not because of fear, or being antisocial.

And just because introverts seem to eschew conversations, it doesn’t mean we don’t like to talk. It’s just that we detest small talk. I know to me it’s trivial and contrived. Throw me into a discussion about ideas and concepts, and I’m all in.

Now I'm POSITIVE I'm an introvert.
Now I’m POSITIVE I’m an introvert.

But to go to a social gathering and mingle??? It exhausts me. And now I know that this isn’t a figment of my imagination. And it’s not just my allergies. After taking some time to do the research, so much has been cleared up.

I mean, I’ve always considered myself introverted. But now I know there is more to that statement. It’s a personality trait, not an affliction. It is who I am, and I need to start embracing it instead of forcing myself to participate in events that suck the life right out of me. I need to find a balance.

It’s a shame that this all had to come to light for me now that I’m in my fifties, and not sooner. But I’m grateful and excited that it did. I’m going to jump in with both feet and start exploring my new found trait. And I’m going to share the good stuff I discover. I’m sure there’s more than one or two more introverts like me reading this who will find new information interesting. Who’s with me????        k